Aphrodite and her Stars

I think I’ve found my baseline for the rest of the year: betterment.

Betterment in all aspects of my life. A concept I hope I will return to perennially. This is how I am manifesting my dreams and aspirations out to the universe, to hear and feel my inner most intentions.

When I do make it back home, I hope I can find the courage to continuously put out my resume and land myself a job. My grades, I hope, will be better than those of last semester. That’s going to take concentration. Genuine hard work and determination is going to be required and I am able to meet those ends. I also want to strive in my friendships and reaffirm my connections with those who matter to me. I am going to put in the time that is required for relationships to prosper and grow.

I want to evoke the mobile power of water. The ability to caress those who are surround me in positivity and the strength to drown those who mean me harm. I will not falter to assert myself and I will not be egotistical enough to humble myself when needed. I will live all my emotions and their truths, I will learn how each feeling taste and how to harness them for my own success.

However, I know with my self-image, I am going to perhaps break this year. Drug addiction is an  truth that could possibly become a reality. I am unsure as to whether I am taking the right means for what needs to be done. Albeit, I would do plenty to lose weight. I can taste that energy in the air. My relationship with my monster, I doubt, will get any better. I will come to terms with that.

I don’t plan on having a romantic interest this year but who knows what Aphrodite has for me in store? However, Torin’s reading suggested that romantic love wasn’t in my stars for the year – that too, I will come to terms with. However, it hurts right now. I’d like to have had a connection like that with someone sooner rather than later. I feel withered and worn in age, there seems to be a timer above my head and its flashing red.

If not now, then when? (If not you, then who?)